Scared of nothin at all

I'm just so scared 
Scared to death
Even of my success
Wish I could take 
All the turbulence inside
Turn it into fuel for the fire
The holy fire of artistic devotion
Please burn away the pain 
It's keeping me enslaved
I hate this feeling of helplessness
I'd rather feel nothing at all
Sometimes
I'd rather feel nothing at all
Sometimes
I'd rather feel nothing at all